I used to think that it was just about ‘asking for so little’, and there is that, too, in that instead of fully embracing our desires, goals and wishes, many of us have made denial and desirelessness holy and sacred, believing we are ‘purifying ourselves spiritually’ for some ideology, or some imagined / preferred state of balance and perfection.
But I also realize that not only can we be ‘asking for so little’, but can we can be simultaneously ‘allowing so little’.
That is, we can ask and ask and ask for change and for what we want over and over again, but if we can’t allow change and cannot allow in what we want, we are back where we started.
What is this asking for and allowing so little into our lives? From where do they come?
Both of these, I believe, come from assumptions that there is something is ‘wrong’ or ‘inferior’ about us, and as a result, that we are somehow ‘unworthy’. We further entrap ourselves in the analysis of whether or not what we want and what we dream are ‘right’. Additionally, we believe that if we could just ‘fix’ this or that element, or worse, deny ourselves and our true desires altogether, then all will be well and it won’t matter any way.
Unfortunately by these means, we end up defaulting to the known, and to limitation, safety and security as a result.
And thus, we stop at the Gate of Adventure, the Gate of Living and Life.
We comfort ourselves with: “If it’s meant to be, it will be. It will hit me over the head and I will know. I will be sure. I will be
safe. Nothing bad will happen.”
We become afraid to fail, or be seen to fail, let alone try.
Forgetting that: our time here is finite and that we cannot stop the inevitability of when we will no longer be here. We don’t even know when that might be and we still hold ourselves back.
Forgetting that: LIFE is the making of ‘a something or other’ out of the dreams we have been dreaming. Always about free will and agency, and how without our autonomous, co-creative engagement and reaching forward into the unknown, nothing is invented, birthed, manifested, seen, heard, shared, and recorded for all time and all beings.
Osho wrote:
Zen wants you living, living in abundance, living in totality, living intensely. Your life should reach others. Your
blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained
within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its
fragrance to all and sundry – not only to friends but to strangers, too.
This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing your enlightenment, sharing your dance of the beyond.
Why do we make denial, desirelessness and constant fixing holy and sacred?
Why do we stop at the Gate and turn back?
I feel that we have forgotten our profoundly unique places in the Universe, and we are all the poorer for your forgetting of yourself.
And so, choose, rather, to embrace fear as just a natural ‘side-effect’ of being human in an age of unbelievable fear, celebrate any perceive‘failure’ as just a step on the Path, and endeavour to transcend fearful, cringing, status quo versions of ‘living’, failure’ and ‘success’. These are irrelevant.
Find your unique Path and Self, and LIVE THEM FULLY. We just don’t have the time we imagine we do.
Drop Allowing So Little & Just Live.
Life is short. Say Yes to what you love ~ Rebelle Society
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